Happy Birthday!!

Five years ago today I officially became a mother. To be honest, I still find myself shocked by the idea of me being a mom, and this whole life I am living can seem rather unreal at times. I  don’t always feel that I am qualified to be a mom, but the love I have for my three little monsters is so incredibly intense that I cannot imagine NOT having them in my life and not being THEIR mom.

Watching our children grow can be such a bittersweet experience. My once tiny little baby girl has grown into such a remarkable little person, and I am constantly struck by all that she is and all that she has become in just five short years. From the sheer joy expressed in her little face at seeing her friends, to genuine declarations of gratitude for gifts, my little girl is becoming a little lady, despite all her recalcitrance on my behalf.

Seeing beyond the cover of our children and getting to read their true story at times can be difficult. When I am constantly saying “stop” and “don’t do that” and “go to timeout” sometimes I lose sight of what astonishing little beings I have brought into this world. More often than not I seem to find fault in my parenting with my perpetual nitpicking, which I believe is my predominant failing as a mom. But when I see my children in action in the real world, with their peers, I am convinced that I am indeed NOT failing my children and I am truly doing an acceptable job of raising them. 

Happy Birthday Princess!!